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Dear introverts,
Listen to me, if you will, and listen well.
I understand what you're going through, for I went through it too. A shyness so painful it literally makes your stomach turn. Your knees shake and you wrap your arms around your body as you hide yourself in the closest corner.
You see the glances and the smirks as if they can smell your fear and it only makes you more terrified. You try to speak and your throat closes up as if a defense mechanism to keep you from saying something stupid, as you're so sure you'd do.
You can guess their thoughts as clearly as if they were text over their heads. 'Freak' seemed to pop up quite a few times. This is, of course, if you get up the courage to get out of your house in the first place.
I know. The comfort of your home seems so much better. A lock of your door and you're completely safe. Nothing can hurt you. No one can call you a freak.
But before you do that...please heed my warning. I did just that for many years. I let fear overcome me. I convinced myself I didn't need anyone else. I would be just fine.
Years later and I'm alone when I need someone the most. No one to talk me down from the ledge. Sure, I'll hold on. But there will come a day where the ledge will just seem too tempting.
So, introverts...
Can you answer something for me?
Would you rather take a leap of faith?
Or leap off that ledge?
Listen to me, if you will, and listen well.
I understand what you're going through, for I went through it too. A shyness so painful it literally makes your stomach turn. Your knees shake and you wrap your arms around your body as you hide yourself in the closest corner.
You see the glances and the smirks as if they can smell your fear and it only makes you more terrified. You try to speak and your throat closes up as if a defense mechanism to keep you from saying something stupid, as you're so sure you'd do.
You can guess their thoughts as clearly as if they were text over their heads. 'Freak' seemed to pop up quite a few times. This is, of course, if you get up the courage to get out of your house in the first place.
I know. The comfort of your home seems so much better. A lock of your door and you're completely safe. Nothing can hurt you. No one can call you a freak.
But before you do that...please heed my warning. I did just that for many years. I let fear overcome me. I convinced myself I didn't need anyone else. I would be just fine.
Years later and I'm alone when I need someone the most. No one to talk me down from the ledge. Sure, I'll hold on. But there will come a day where the ledge will just seem too tempting.
So, introverts...
Can you answer something for me?
Would you rather take a leap of faith?
Or leap off that ledge?
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They don't know what to do, they're burned out like me
A fire that's been lit for far too long like me
They're thinking what a hopeless case like me
"she isn't even getting better," like me
"why does she self-sabotage?" like me
But do they even understand what it's like to be like me?
I'm burned out, but they don't feel the burn like me
I'm fed up, but they don't feel the fire like me
Do you understand what it's like to have your teenagehood wiped away like me?
They say the grass is greener on the other side but it's wilted like me
They define crazy as a word to be like me
But is it crazy to scream for help into the void like me?
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I Saw You Broken, Bloody, and Bruised
I want to bust this thing open
Break it into a million pieces
Until the galaxy rips open
And I can calmly say
"No, you're not doing this to her."
As lame as it sounds
To go white-knighting around
I would have wanted to save you
From all that has transpired
But now it's too late
I'm just finding out
I guess this is life
Not being able to save everyone
Neither the strangers you pass
Nor the ones you hold close
I feel helpless
I can't say
It'll never happen again
I can only let you know that...
More than I want my own happiness
I want you to never feel this again
I hope my words hold a little meaning
Let my empathy carry enough weight
Let fa
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Love,
Terrifies me,
In a good way,
A tiny bit,
But mostly,
Fills me with dread,
I start trembling,
Shaking,
And shivering,
Paralyzed with fear,
Like a frozen corpse,
I feel the need for closeness,
Tenderness,
Caresses,
But for more of a compassion and love so deep,
That it can withstand the torrential forces of my pain,
Erratic and wild,
Like an eternal storm on a raging sea,
Someone who cares deeply enough for me to brave those angry seas with me,
Face the pain,
That paralyzes me,
Abuses me,
Rapes me of my self worth and value everyday, every moment,
All my perpetual torment,
And horror...
...as...
...a...
Childhood Sexual Abuse Survivor,
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What can I say? I'd rather bleed out a story...poem...thing than bleed in another way. Sometimes you just need to write. About something. Anything. This is a hope that others won't make the same mistakes I did.
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Indeed. When you escape the world into yourself it can hurt you. We should not let fear control us. When we feel fear, we should let it inspire us to become something greater than ourselves.